I t has been a few weeks since the last BB shoot. I am left feeling confused about the mood of the project. I came on to love and uplift all who touched it. It seems as if some got lost. Egos got all over the place.( No pun in the word I used) With that, some can keep it in check others can't. But who am I to say that they are not checked. In my world I love reasoning and trying to do the right thing. I am learning that my right isn't always the right of others. That has been my travel down that road to many times. And really it makes me sad. It is sad when sisters get, to wrapped up in the nothing of it, to make it something. Ego I mean did you see Oprah and Iyania yesterday. What in the world was that? Iyania had to set herself aside and then go to Aunti O to tell her she fucked up. Really. If you never wanted to leave Harpo, why did you leave?
What is it that keeps us from saying we are wrong? Why is that so bad? Because even, when you don't say it. You show it. We see it and we just move on. You fix it or.... have I don't care about you way of living. Hell maybe you don't. But I care I care about you and you. We are all mirrors of one another. Weather you want to look or not.
I am and will make my right, right with me. D.J. Justice says all the time and Truth is Truth. You can not get around that. So answer the phone when I call to have a real talk.
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ReplyDeleteThis is Tembeka. You know what? I was just thinking about that this morning. True -- I do have alpha female tendencies and it's hard to contain sometimes. However, as a thinking and feeling adult, it's *my* job to keep that sh!t in check. I'm on a professional upswing at the moment and I feel good about it; I know it's only modest, but I love what I'm doing. And so it occurred to me that the key to keeping one's ego in check is to be ABOUT THE WORK and THE PROCESS. I can look back on my own life and see the negativity that came out of all the times I lost sight of that. So I'm just enjoying what I'm fortunate enough to do every day and working to make it as meaningful and fun as possible. Work and process.
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